Just-eU-n-miee

13th June ` o5

2005-06-13T16:00:00.000-07:00

haishh . so fast ishh June lerr .
OMG so fast . i dunn wan narhhs!
mahh piano practical exam ish on da august .
cham la . haishh . whiie da time pass so fast ders .
reallie hate it arhss~!

so long din blog lerr ~
todaee very very boredd narhhs!!
todaee baobeii go camp lerrhx .
haiyarhh!! i headache narhhs
reallie sibei boredd la .
i realisedd how important ish he to miie lerr !!
without him , i feel so insecure,lonely andd ...
aiyarhh i dunnO how tuhh saee narhhs
its from mahh heart ~
i dun think euU peepx nOe how i feel
wahahahax ~ i just miss him damn alot .
haishh ~ as if he left miie alreaddie so sadd ~
lalalala ~ hope he din read this or else i blush narhhs!
heeex . i lurbbe eu i lurbbe eu sooo muchh~!!
aii si ni ler wOrhhx . x))

31st MaY` o5

2005-05-31T14:40:00.000-07:00

haax . i`m happie now lerr
he sms miie . den mahh smile began tuh widee .
bleahhx . laogong so naughtiee . heex .
mwarhhx .
# owaes lurbbe ew #

31st MaY` o5

2005-05-31T14:14:00.000-07:00

i was reallie sadd just now .
i dunno wad happened tuh miie and him*
i just wanna joke joke . den i see wad he saiid " ... "
i just saee wtf .
and den he kept on saying things .

i was reallie angriee .
i dunno . haishh .
i asked him tuh go da hiking thing now .
den he ... haish i dun wanna go on .

well . it`s mahh fault .
i know he will think wad da hell ishh she lyk tat .
i noe its mahh fault . dun worriee . =))

sometimes ...
when mahh temper ishh lyk tat ,
i will like keep thinking some things tat are too much ,
likee ....
i hope he leave miie and find a new ger as this type of ger(me) ish not worth it . haishh dunno lahhx .

just now i lay mah head on da table .
mah tears dropped for no reason .
and now i dropped tears again .
sorrie dear . i dun meant it .
i guess mahh "daee" ish coming .

30 May` o5

2005-05-30T16:50:00.000-07:00

todaee i realliee thinkk of wadd i wan for da future .
da guy i lurbbe deepliee , e jobs i wan andd many many things .
andd i mostliee thinkk of mahh lurbbe .

and i found some meaningful and trUe lifee quotes in da net .
i shall write it here =)

1) You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it.
tat ish truee . Only those people hu experience true lurbbee knows all about it =)

2) Life without love is like a tree Without blossom and fruit.
yes. fer example ... life without your body you wun haf figuree n tuhh staee alivee .

3) Love is like war, Easy to begin but hard to end.
Easy to ask for steadd , but breaking up ish owaess difficult tuh saee out .

4) My love for you is a journey; Starting at forever, And ending at never.
This ishh for mahh steadd . It will start but will never endd .
Depends on you ... whether you feel da samee =)

5) A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me Together forever and never apart, Maybe in distance, but never in heart .
i toalliee agree . it applies miie and him* in .

6) The best feelings are those that Have no words to describe them....
i lurbbe him* till i`m out of words tuhh sae , cos mahh lurbbe ferr him* ishh damn deep oOhx.

7) Love is the master key that opens the gates of happiness.
Yup =) . Love ishh e one making miie happiee nehhx.

8) The life and love we create is the life and love we live.

9) Love puts the fun in together, The sad in apart, The hope in tomorrow, The joy in the heart.

10) A goal, a love and a dream give you total control over your body and your life.

hmmm ... tats all .
laogong`s mid year ishh coming .
i seem not tuhh noe anythingg till i asked him da late min.
haishh . felt sadd thoughh . nvm .
i must livee happilieee wibb a BIG smilee =D

26 MaY` o5

2005-05-26T02:47:00.000-07:00

21 May `o5

2005-05-21T16:04:00.000-07:00

todaee honey`s kOr addedd miiee .
dao siaa . xP .
haax . nice chatting wibb honey andd him bahh?

den went out eat lunchh wibb familiee.
i wu liao sent him sms. haax .
he calledd me chao ah lian .
den i saiid ccb lj ginna . ai-ee sio pa arhhx . laii arr !
lOls . den so sent here and dere xD .
den suddenliee kor saee got sendd miie i din receive -.-
he saiid oh yarr!! i forgot tuhh sendd xP
mahh kOr so funniee keep making miie luff .

2o MaY ` o5

2005-05-20T19:01:00.000-07:00

todaee went tuhh art museum .
da andrew v kpkm de lO .
actuallie dun wanna sit in front obb him de
so miie and sheryl bo bian haf tuhh sit cos no place in da bus.
he was behind miie at first .
den suddenliee his pencil box lost .
den kickk da chair . walao . thought wadd .
his bUs arr . dun behave himself .
i wantedd tuhh shout ...
CB LAR . KICK KICK . KICK YOUR MOTHER`S BUTT LAR .
WALAO . YOUR BUS AR .
haax. but i tahan ... insteadd of that i saiid ...
walao kick wad kick . lyk tuhh kick kick kick . xD
saw one place horr ... filming!
haax. one old ladiee walking looking at something .

den he still cannot findd .
kickk sheryl`s chairr .
i saee dun kick other peepx chair larhh . anyhow one ew .
den finalliee he saw his pencil box wibb alvin ba?
snatch it . wah sehh . i see lerrh pekk chek lo .
his pencil box lyk gold tuhh him cannot lost
if lost den lyk can die lyk tat .

reach lerr .
was bigg . nice scultures too!
haf tuhh draw one of dem!!! i knew it we had tuhh . haax
i sux at it . drew da easiest one .
haax . lyk shit siaa . xD perhapps .
took at least about 30-40 mins .

go backk lerr .
we were walking tuh da direction which da bUs dropped us earlier .
while on our waee backk , got ONE COUPLE!
da photographer taking their photox .
den da bride jump da groom grab and hug her...
everyone GOES WOO!! HWEET A WEET! CLAPPING THEIR HANDS!
haax. dey two lyk so happie hao xin fU . wishh tuh be lyk tat in future xD
da bride was reallie chio and haf sweet lOoks, mann i envy! lOls .
da groom not badd , quite shuaii .

ii in da bus took out hp .
teacher dunno x) heng .
sms dear andd marmie . xD
todaee happieee . heex =)

went backk tuhh skoOl
dismiss lerr yay !
went out wibb honey again . honey ishh mahh fwen . xD not steadd .
took neoprints again . this tym da neoprints are reallie nice !! heex .
next tymee we are going tuhh j8! heex.

19 MaY` o5

2005-05-19T20:01:00.000-07:00

todaeee ... same oso .
budden nothing happened larhhx .
talkedd tuhh hU arr .
hmmm ... Melvin , samuel , luming, aosheng .
dey are damn funnie nOrhx .
budden honey and sheryL sit dere so quiet -.-
den talked tuhh may , xueqi , yee yit , seow ying dey all .

melvin suddenliee wanna see mahh watch .
den he go grab mahh hand look at mahh watchh . -.-''
lOls . his watch damn heaviee! made obb metaL .
damn boringg in skoOl .

tmL going out wibb honey again. yay~!
mahh baobeii~ xD

18 maY `o5

2005-05-18T19:07:00.000-07:00

i had tuhh saee this i cant take it .
cos ... i dunno whether guys are kaypo or pervert .
todaee go out wibb honeyy .
da guyx keep looking at miie .
i keep thinking lyk .. huhx ? wad happened mahh hair messiiee? mahh clothing somethink wrong mehhx xD . dunnO larhhx .
anywaee just realised yee yit meii de blogg tat song ishh same as mine !!
but englishh version xD . haax

18 MaY`o5

2005-05-18T18:50:00.000-07:00

decided tuhh write nOw .
felt boredd nOw hehehex .
todaee was reallie v boring lorhhx .
staee in klass . todaee do quiz first in da mor .
lOls ii wanna go toilet immediateliee .
den teacher saiid hU got 50/50 xD
i raisedd up mahh hand so qiao!!
den i saiid harhh? ii got 15 . lOls.
den i suddenliee dun feel lyk vomiting out lerr .

den after da quiz ...
we were tuhh go tuhh da field .
walao so boring . dun wan go .
staee in klass rest rather than go out of da sun tuhh see soccer match .
den was realliee boredd in klaass .
asked sheryl and honey to go down wibb miie tuh walk walk .
i just rmbed 2 klasses are selling neoprints and cookies . xD

sheryl wantedd tuhh buy da cookies . i dun wan .
den she hestitated again n again. haax .
afterr recess i finallie buy ferr herr xD
den i see aiyarhh buy one ferr mahself too . heheZz .
da taste not bad larhhx . budden lyk too much flour .
too little chocolate chiPs . xP .
overall quite nice lahhx .

den honey, sheryl and i went tuhh da wad room lar.
cos we saw da guy klassmatex(some) in tat room .
we chattedd . lOls . quite interesting .
i actuallie chatted wibb samuel ferr da first tym ... !!
sitting down xD . we din quarrel or wad liaox .
daryl was dere sleepingg -.-
it was reallie hot dere lo , dunno whiie he sleep until so xiang xD
must be reallie tired or somethinkk . haax .

den daryl woke up . just joke joke wibb him .
cui de hen xiang horr . hahahax . den samuel followed after miie .
den we three chatted . sheryl and honey so quiet xD .
samuel and daryl lyk tuhh suan honey alot . haishh .
dey suan sheryl oso . badd siaa . xD .
budden i reallie had fun chatting wibb dem .
go backk tuhh klass ... dunno whiie .
followed dem -.-
samuel went missing .
den chattedd wibb daryl, honey, lihua and abit tuhh vanessa.
sheryl very quiet nor . * hope she speak uP =) *

we sat dere ferr dunno lyk 1 hr chatting x)
doing nth . v sian .
den everyone do their own thing lerr .
cant tahan . went tuhh honey tuhh chit chat xD .
asked herr go out wibb miie after skoOl .
den after skoOl liaox .
need tuhh staee back ferr lit ferr a whilee .
haax . ii got 62 !!! so badd larhhx sobsob .
not mahh expectationx . deprove alot haishh =( .
but at least pass larhh =) .

after skoOl miie and honey went tuhh heartland mall !
haax it was reallie fun!!
we took neoprints twice .
second was funnie .
we see how cum so long havent appear da editting .
go in and out of da machine xD .
den go in again too late!! we onliee had 2!! not 6!!
honey was so cutee in those photox!!
i was ugliee acting ccuteee and chio lalala~ xD

den actuallie wanna go backk
ask her go hougang mall .
fun fun fun !!!
weet . i lurbbe it .
i will sure ask her out again!!! heex
den go backk tat tym ..
wa lao mahh right legg pain!!
muscle cramp!!! i wanna force mahh leg to touch da ground .
cant!! it was so tight!! i had tuhh "pinch" mahh leg .
after a while it was okaee .

meeting steadd .
he wantedd french but i dun wan .
im sorrie ...!! i din meant to!
i reallie dunno wan . i dunno whiee .
ii feel tat peck on da cheek , lip , foreheadd ishh beta .
and a hug would be finee .
i hope ew dun mindd =)

17 MaY `o5

2005-05-17T22:00:00.000-07:00

yesterdaee din even studiee!!
go tuhh resource room tuhh check da test paperx .
i was kinda shockedd ,
because i thought dey wun mark so fast . -.-
dey did . haax .

quite disappointedd wibb mah resultx .
it was likee shit . shit results .
not mah expectations .
Maths - 58/100 ( bcos of tat paper 2 , causedd tuhh do badliee )
Science - 68 n a half ( happie? )
Chinese - 62/100 ( compo and letter writing - 21/50 and 11 n a half )
Geographiee - 31 n a half ( WORST OF ALL )
D & T - 62/100 ( satisfiedd )
For maths and chinese i was disappointedd ,
i thought i never do it so badliee .
especialli mathx i owaess get A1 or 2 now dropped .
Chinese! ii reallie disappointedd too ...
cos i deprove alot !!
Geographiee ishh owaess da same . i cant seem tuh ustd .
Science i improve alot heheheZz was happie at tat timee xD
i dun get 60+ ferr mid year last year and final too .
finallie i passed =)
d & T i was relieved tat i passed wibb 62 heex . =)

den after skoOl ,
got wad mathx de . computer de .
hai hao larhhx . not reallie very boredd .

16 MaY` o5

2005-05-16T19:01:00.000-07:00

todaee wOke uP latee
mahh motherr called miie late de lO . xD
haf tuhh run laterr .
wah sehh . heng arr .
raining . saw lightning but no thunderr .
yess !!! * how happie i was *

ii reachedd dere (reservoir) at 7.30 *estimatedd*
hmm ... was reallie heaviee .
everyone was happie as it rained heaviliee
and hoping it will be cancelled .
but ... e rain suddenliee stopped!!
everyone was eeyerr wa lao .
we were tuhh assembledd out of da shelter .
den it startedd tuhh drizzle and heaviee rain .

i was so coldd ... !!!
da teacherx wanted it tuhh continue .
but we just haf tuhh walk niia .
i was relieved . =)
da scenery was reallie nicee .
i lurbbe da fresh air !!
i hope i will find a daee tuhh jog wibb anyonee .
heex .

we were " let off " at 9+ or 10+
i cant remember , i haf STM .
den went home ...
bathe again .
den went tuhh IMM .
wah lao so coldd .
when go home de shi hou ..
mahh nose bledd .
mahh nose was stiff lOls xD

mahh meii sms miie!!
suddenliee ! reallie enjoyedd chatting wib herr .
heex . * ai si ni * mwarhhx

next ... move on tuhh mahh jie .
i was reallie touchedd by wad she saiid in her blog .
omg ... ew describedd miie till i`m lyk an angel xD
i dunchh deserve it .. reallie ~ =)
* ai si ni * mwarhhx .

DARDAR .
i hate ew ferr lifee .
so long din sms miiee . sad larrhhx . walao .
haishh . dunnO wad ew doingg .
never inform miie .
i sms " ??? " oso never repliee .

15 MaY` o5

2005-05-15T21:50:00.000-07:00

todaee .
hai hao de moOd .
tryingg tuhh make mahself happie all da tymee .
dun let anyoneee nOex ,
but nOw those peepx hU read mahh blog nOe lerr .
i was just trying tuhh act mahhself normaL .
i was totalliee upset .

wokee uP at 8+ .
marmiie called miie uP tuhh eat breakfast wibb her and dardiee .
atee finishh lerr . den sms dardar nOr .
yeahx likee tat .
lunchh atee at dunnO where .
was a big portion , forcedd mahself tuhh eat ,
let miie get sickk obb it~ fall sickk .
well , ate too muchh , feel like vomittingg out .
burdden just continuedd eating .

went tuhh findd furniturex fer mah new house .
hmm ... i reallie likee dat bedd which cost $4000+
it was comfortable tuh rest on .
den went on tuh plasma teevee and dvd eg .
it was expensivee , dun call miie rich or anythink .
i`m not rich , da money ishh not minee .

just now at 9+
called dardar . trickedd him tat it was real imp .
hmmm . he din get angriee or wad .
talked half waee .
i saee something which i actuallie not supposed tuh saee
cos i knew da answer . but yet i saee it .
i kept reaL quiet after tat .
began tuhh think obb da past .
he asked miie whiie i was quiet .
i just kept denyingg .

den i din catch him as in wad he saiid ,
he began tuhh saee nth la nth la .
haishh . it was alright .
i just kept calm .
i was worried too .
over ...
ystd`s dream .
i dreamt of he breaking up wibb mie .
haishh .
perhaps this pulls awaee our relationship btw miie and him .
yeahhx . he was right ,if we got seperatedd , cant help it too .
maybe fatee?
suddenlie i cant help it add start tuhh drop mahh tearx
out of a sudden .

haishh .
i dunno whether ...
will he leave miie or will i leave him .
i was afraid . i was too scaredd .
i haf no confident . i mean ...
i wun leave him again ,
but will he ask ferr a short break?
it reallie scares miie . im reallie frightened .
i dun wan that kinda moment tuhh start again .
it was reallie hurt . millions ob stabs in mahh heart~

14th MaY`o5

2005-05-14T00:00:00.000-07:00

todaee reallie in a haappie mood .
dunnO whiiee , heex .
i was laughing awaee .
at nitee ... dardiiee cuM backk from m`sia ler .
hmM ... he brought laksa backk .
yumiiiee . but spiciee . hehex .

it was rainingg when i was playing soccer wib mah kOr .
haax . nothing tuhh do . so play wibb him .
den heard thunder ... * ba bom*
i was reallie scaredd .
i saw da lightning strikes
i immediateliee cover mahh ears .
budden nO thunderr .
but when i dun cover da thunder laii -.-
haax . ii can`t sleep so wrote this .

it ishh oreadiee 12 midnitee~
i wanted tuh sleep but can`t im too scaredd .
i kept thinking obb steadd .
wish he was by mahh sidee hugging miie .
hehehex . wild thoughts -.-''
thinking how we will get married . heeZz
i wanna sleep lerr . buaibuai bloggiieee

13rd MaY`o5

2005-05-13T21:59:00.000-07:00

hmM .
listening comprehension todaee .
when dey started telling us da first passage ,
i was blurr . lOls . mahh chinese sUx .
i need tymee .
budden after a while okae lerr .
but suddenliee feel tat it wasn`t hard after all .
dunnO saee easiiee den markx lan si xD

in da morning ...
after da listening comprehension
i wwas reallie quiet . dun feel happie .
dunnO whiie . just cant smile tuhh mah fwenx
even dey walked past miie and smiledd . x)
actualliee 8+ can go home ler .
burdden haf tuhh staee backk ferr
dunnO wad gap btw parents and us .
tat guy was funnie from 2E4 .
he made miie luff as well as mahh klassmatex .

meetin steadd budden dun feel well .
gastric , headache ...
cum back homee .
korkor asked miie wanna play da x-box wibb him or not .
lOls . i played nOrh lyk craziie , nOn-stoP .
soccer de xD . i hate soccer but play com or x-box i lyk de .
it was thrilling , exciting ~
played untiL 6+ .

came onlinee ..
wah seh see da testee which a club accepted miie
i was lyk "what?! i got A ferr da sexiie thing" lOls .
quite shockedd .
lurbbe huiyi jie loads .
1314 de jiemeii worhhx .
. 184 .

12nd oB maY`o5

2005-05-12T18:17:00.000-07:00

todaee rainingg .
it was cold in da morning .
burdden its cooLing thoughh .
easier tuhh do da paperx .
not so stiffy .

chinese maybe i might lose 20 markx .
i just can`t score well .
ii just thinking on thinking lotsa weird things .
i just can`t smile ...
it seems lyk e end ferr miie .
after 1hr 30 mins .
normal academic still got tuh stay back .
we had d&t too .
i was den "addictedd" .
i din think of anythink just d&t .
din studiee at all .
just managed tuhh ustd wad questions wan .

we gotta staee back ferr da crosscountry fun or smt .
da teacher brief us .
guys gotta run 4.8km / gerrx gotta run 3.2km~
gerx haf run tuh run upslope .
guess i could`nt make it ~ fer suree .

haishh . feel tat mah smiles are fake .
mahh laughter fakee too .
everythinkk ishh just an act .
din mean tuhh hurt ew peepx hU tried tuh make miie happie .
i just cant laugh out or smile from mahh heart .

11st maY`o5

2005-05-11T20:38:00.000-07:00

so long din uPdate lerr .
mishh mahh blOg alot `
haishh . maths paper 1 was easiie .
den paper 2 da end abit hardd ler .
i dunnO whiee . mahh brain cannot workk .
tiredd . lost maybe abt 22 marks lerrx .
uNhappie =(

gO homee .
haishh .
quarrel wibb mahh mother .
she pushhedd mahh headd . and slapped miie .
hU cares . im not scaredd lerr .
hU ask her tuhh keep slapping miie nOw get used tuh it .
even cane ... im nOt scaredd cos last tym oso cane miie til last year de july bahx .
i even tOk backk . nOt lyk last tymee keep quiet .
she called miie stupidd i called herr stupidd idiot .
and mumbling some words likee cheebye larhh . farkk ew .

tokedd tuh someone oLder than miiee .
stead unhappie . sorrie nOrh .
nOt tat i wanna chat wibb dem .
ishh i dunnO hOw old dey are b4 we chatted .

haishh . lifee just sux ~
wonderr hU will brighten uP mahh lifee wiibb excitement & happiness
insteadd of angerr , sadness ~
din reallie studiie chinese . headache .
never even studiee d&t .
dun reallie caree . fail den fail lOhh.~

7 MaY`o5

2005-05-07T22:01:00.000-07:00

still at hOme .
tuitionx .
hmM ... siann
watch i do i do dvd .
loLs.

eat dinner outside .
very full .
watch teevee .
play computer .
chatting .
tat`s all~

6may`o5

2005-05-06T18:41:00.000-07:00

todaee was jushh a fine dae ferr mie bahhx .
ii din reallie luff this few daes .
if i did , i jushh making mahhself happie .
happie ferr both parties .
not tuhh worriee .

ii kindaa stressedd still .
ii cant stoP being sO stressed .
nO one can helP miie .
oNliee miie , i can onliee help mahhself .

heavy rain .
mahh whole bodiee was so wet and even mahh bag .
feeling sO coldd . achoO .
thinkk i gonna get flU .
korkor came andd fetch miie .
wahh wait dere ferr dunnO how longg .
thunder storms ... scaredd miiex .
when i get in tuh da carr , omg da seat are wet cos obb mahh skirt -.-

actually wanna gO out todaee .
burdden ishh korkor's b`daee .
we celebratedd togetherr .
bought him a photo albuM ... about $20++
it`s all worth it =)
toOk lotsa photox .
hOpe he enjoy his daee .

mondaee ishh geo and lit mid year exam lerr .
wa laO . 2 examss . hOw tuuhh coPe ?!
sadd sia . haishh~

25april`o5

2005-05-03T17:07:00.000-07:00

hmmm ... this 2 daees din uPdatee .
busiie .
haishh . headdachhe siia .
reallie getting very fan .
todaee got englishh midd year exam paper 2 .
dun reallie haf mood tuhh dO .
do half way sian sian one .

todaee din tok muchh in skoOl .
reallie quiet .
just tokedd tuhh yee yit meii daa most todaee .

ii wanna fall asleep and never tuhh wake uP again .
last tym i dun reallie haf da guts tuhh die .
nOw dunnO whyiie i haf da guts .
reallie . its true .
commit suicide this wordd ishh nOt easiie .
eu mushh haf da courage tuhh do it or else eu wun .
ii jushh dunno whyiee .
ish it i had enoughh in dishh world?
or he ishh treating mOre coldly tuhh miie again?
or my family?
or mahh studies?
or warhh?
i just cant ustd~

30 april`o5

2005-04-30T22:03:00.000-07:00

sadd lahh .
todaee din even tok tuhh him muchh .
todae real busiie arhh him .
haishh .
mishh him arhhx~
mwarhh !!
+. mahh gastric havent recoverr +.\

30 april`o5

2005-04-29T21:58:00.000-07:00

mahh maths got 23/25 .
walaO just 2 markks .
careless siia . if not suree 25/25 .
see lerr abit bU shUangg .

thursday ... i din gO skoOl
wed teacher oready said tat ...
thursday give us backk englishh ca3 paper .
went back tuhh skoOl take science ca3 .
wa lao so breathless . cant breathee .
went tuhh klass . loOk underr da desk .
no englishh paper !!! so sad !!!
only got homework -.-

den yesterday tat ...
leroy came tuhh miie .
saiid mahh test paper on mahh table later den take .
ii wonder where he got it from. *wonderss*
went back tuhh klass . yay !!!
22/30 !! first tym siia . so happie .
ii actually thought i would get 16-18 .
pheww . it was a luckk !! heex .

29th april`o5

2005-04-29T15:00:00.000-07:00

went tuhh skoOl .
tat andy kP de .
quarrel wibb miie .
cb arr . fcukerr .
reallie veryy angry in da morning .

morning assembly .
tailim and weiqiangg two bloody idiots .
hatee dem .
scream at dem .
call dem shut uP .

can go backk at 12.15
went home help andy print something .
wa lan ehh . file got problem .
waste mahh tym siia .
go back skoOl .
din see him .
wa lao i got headache nOw even mOre .

x.[lifee sux ].x-/

28april`o5

2005-04-28T10:47:00.000-07:00

todaee woke uP at daa same tym ferr skool .
wahh sehh . stomachh painn .
budden not lyk yesterday sO painn .
no nausea le . budden abit cant breathe .
i ate real slow ferr breakfast .

marmiie see ler . asked miie no need go skoOl .
cos i lyk so xin gU .
go doctor at 9+
doctor asked miie laiid on daa bed thingg .
den check stomachh .
beat it hard. lOls .
den haf to reply his questions .
he saiid gastric . denn i cant breathe cos indigestion andd da wind in my stomach .
lOls .

haix later gO skoOl take test lerr~
later at nitee write again . heex~

27th april`o5

2005-04-28T10:40:00.000-07:00

todaee haf turhh go backk skool study lerhh .
dUn wann neh . lOls~
burdden nO choicee ohh .

lessons were not boring except ferr p.e
p.e i din exercise.
last tym doctor gave miie mc till end obb april .
gerrs dance ... guys play badminton .
wa lao . chacha dance . lOls~
see darhh teacher dance so funnie siia .

hadd buns ferr lunchh .
aate wibb sheryl behindd seven eleven .
den tOk about alot obb things lyk skoOl things.
den we went turhh seven eleven buy drinks .

hadd new south wales science exam after skoOl .
which was supposed turhh be taken ystd .
wad stupid questions !!
asked us things tat we dun even nOe .
lyk how turhh prevent food from turning brown or somethinkk
wad acid ... we oso ting bu dong.
suddenly, my stomachh hurtedd abit .
it started since 3 days agO! haish~
after a while okie liaOx .

at nite . dda worst part .
my stomach hurtedd alot!!!
i cant even stand uP .
i cant even sit uP .
it was totally a hard tym ferr miie .
alot obb wind in my stomach .
den when stand uP ... eu feel lyk falling cos wind too heavy
hahaha!!!
ii criedd lOh .
cant breathe well !!
den i began to think ...
omg im going turh die soon
i havent even do wad i wan b4 i diee .
dun wan die young . lOls

i din check hp which was on my table .
din nOe xiaoyong calledd twice and gave miie abt 5 msgs .
kinda worried . sorrie nehx . made ew worriedd ferr miee~
ii knew it 2+ am i woke uP . go toilet . lOls.
stomachh muchh better le .
cant sleep after tat .
wait ferr quite some tym~

*`-[ written on 28april`o5- ] -`*

26th april`o5

2005-04-26T15:33:00.000-07:00

todaee din study in skoOl .
went to music room immediately when reach skooL.
got syf . so excitedd dunno get warh position .

wa lao get sliver . judge stupid anyhow give marks de lo.
cedar gerrs play lyk dunno wadd ... so boring .
got gold . knn .
everyone hu got sliverr cheer lyk craziie .
we are da only one hu are reallie disappointedd .
2 years ago got gold lo , now deprove .

after noeing da result ...
got lotsa peepx cried .
i felt lyk cryingg but i tried turhh tahan .
i see dem lyk so xin gu ferr this compeition .
and this is da rewardd .
haishh .

denn all da ccas lyk choir, Co and others get gold lo .
we sliverr . so lyk embarassing . haishh
den principle and vice principle surely very sadd lo .

25th april`o5 morningg

2005-04-25T00:34:00.000-07:00

haishh . yst nite he admitted he reallie was revenging tat day .
he broke up wibb miie tat day budden patch .
he saiid reallie revenge wibb a smiling face .
sO sadd .
tis morning ...
wake up , askkedd him ...
eu had enough fun?
eu wan somemore?
he was kindaa blurr .

until after skooOl he askedd miiex again .
how cum ii saiid tat .
he saiid he dunnO he saiid tat .
i wasn`t reallie in him liaO .
maybe he just acting blurr or fer real de .
dunno . hu knows? he himself den nOe .
but in e end okiie la trust him .

haishh yee yit ystd evening saiid
if he leave miie denn he will lyk be dead norrh .
but wads da use ?
maybe he doesn`t lurbbe mie anymore .
together maybe his heart not wibb miie .

today i reallie very frustrated .
ii dunno whyiie .
easily will get angry , wanna fan pi xin .
ii changedd . ii lyk turhh use lotsa vulgar words nOw .
anythingg bu shuang denn use da words liao .
lyk knn . ccb . fcuking . cb . more larhh .
got used turh it lerhhx~

todaee exam maybe wun be able turh do well .
cos i keep tinking abt ystd .
do halfway lyk wanna tear da paper and give up .

haishh . one day if i reallie leave him,
reallie he will get me back mehh ?
dunnO? haishh .
in da future not immediately ?
ii dunnO .
my mindd ishh in a mess nOw .

24th april`o5

2005-04-24T20:44:00.000-07:00

wokee up at 8+ lorhh .
wake up cannot sleep liaO .
went turhh market wibb my parents ,
had breakfast at burger kingg .
wa lao . saw tat one family again .
everyweek go to burger kingg turhh eat de .
si bei paisehh .
budden nOw we kinda got smile to each other lerr .
lOls ...~

todaee dUn nOe whyiie not feeling well again .
feel lyk vomitting . got wind inside my stomachh .
lunchh eat abit niia .
went out ...
meeting da house designerr ferr my new house .
wa lao ... findd ta place obb industry so long norhh .
make miie car sickk . motion sickness . lols .
budden okiie liaOx .
my hands was reallie stiff .

we discuss ferr 3 hrs damn long .
until abt 2 hrs i abit sian liaox .
cos i keep giving opinions lOlx .
even i go toilet cum back ,
he still explain to miie again . diiao~

went turhh heartland mall after tat .
wa lao . hungry . ate burger king again . lOls
den eat abit ... feel lyk vomitting out . xin gu .
whole body shivering in cold
until marmiie saiid eu useless larhh ,
last tym eu stronger than miie now weaker .
went back turhh da car ... much beta .
keep calling dardar ferr fun . lOls .
nothing beta to do .
hehex .

went turhh mahh cousin hse .
funn . heex . lurbbe him alot .
lyk turhh act blurr de~
kawaii nehhx . mwarhhs~

went back home call dardar .
wa lao ... guess he outside .
din even tell miie .
i reallie very frustrated norhh .
last tym tell miie de . now he dun .
haishh .

eat dinner .
not feeling well again .
but slowly eat norhh .

my marmie saiid ....
your bmi now ishh only 18 lack of nutrients
tats whyiie cold easily .
hu cares ?
i lurbbe slim !! heex

23rdd april`o5

2005-04-23T20:49:00.000-07:00

today ishh a boring day for miiex , perhaps quitee~
gy gotta go outta hse in early morning , miie at home doing nth .
sometyms feel so frustrated if he replys late .
told eu liao . ii haf bad temperedd this 2 weeks .

luckily had justin , my buddy to peii miie chat , if not i reallie boredd turhh death.
we chattedd by sms and msn . quite long never tok to him on da phone .
he wanted turhh tok on da phone since monday i guess .
but cant make it . so today he asked again . agreed turhh call .
hahax . reallie enjoyed mahhself , luffing all da tym lyk siao charbor siaa .

yee yit meii calledd miie . din pickk uP .
call her backk . she wanna tell miiex somethink .
asked miie go online . lOls .
nOe she`s quite stressed overr her cca and studies .
but hOpe she get over it worhhx .
meii mushh happie oways worhhs !!

huiyi jie came online .
nice chatting wibb her , oways chat de wun get boredd .
hahax . i wondered whyiie . so happie n fortunate turhh haf those peepx ard miie .
thankss ferr everythink!!

xiaoyongg , misshhing eU .
dunno eu noe or not . haishh .
lurbbe you alot .
eU haf broken my heart quite a number ob tyms ,
hoPe eu wun break my fragile heart again .
eU promise miie not turhh let miie drop a tear again ,
eU did again . =(
wishh turhh be wibb eu foreverr !!
muackkx~

22ndd April`o5

2005-04-22T21:41:00.000-07:00

today ishh my first day obb postingg .
dishh seems turhh be my diary .
ii gonna write all my troubles and anything which kept in my heart from nOw onwards ,
Just lyk last tym.

today was a fine day actually . hmM ... just tat i had fallen sickk .
ystd nite sO suayy . late in da nite laO sai . lOls .
denn stomach pain , feel lyk vomittingg .
this morning , i woke uP , found out my stomach was reallie hurt , feel lyk vomitting too .
nO appetite turhh eat breakfast but forced myself turhh .

perhaps ... eU peepx hU ishh readingg xiang y y . lOls . im not tat kinda person . its my gastric .
denn today my klass was having literature and art tests .
ii reallie cant concentrate . sO bad headache andd wanna vomit out de .
lay my head on da desk , sometyms so xin gu lyk realie wanna bleah out .
lOls . den keep sitting up , laying down . =PpP
i guess i gonna do badly for this tym .
art ... sure faiL . din even study norhh .

today i was reallie very bad turhh xiaoyongg . scolded him . dunnO whyiie lahh . sO fan and stressed , since last 1 or 2 weeks agO . hmM ... hoPe he reallie dUn mindd worhhs =)

huiyi jie sibeii angry norhhs . wahh lann . tat gerr sibeii bhb norhhs , thought she sO chio denn say my jie . see herr pix wanna pukee more norhhs . heng ferr her , she ish in m`sia not s`pore or else i ba her until song . lOls . backstabber norhh . in front obb my jie , she so innocent and kindd , behind her backk wtf cb tok badd . if shee ish sayingg got gangg ehh langg she diee norhh . was reallie very angryy toO wibb jie . althoughh huiyi jie ishh in m`sia we are quite close . hahax ~ hOpe one day we will meet~

next, sorrie nehh xiaoyongg . suppose turhh meet eU today but i wasn`t well . =(
nvm lahh . our hearts are linkkedd together can lerhh . next week den meet norhh horr? hOpe eU dUn mindd ohhs =) lurbbe eU always~